Shake it! Shake it!

Ever have the feeling that although you are surrounded by people or friends and yet you feel so alone. It's been almost a week and I still can't shake this feeling off. It's not that I don't have any companion or entertainment in life but after all that there is still a feeling of emptiness or lost somewhere tingling at the back of your mind.

There is a song titled 'leaf' by Ah Shang in which the lyrics mention that loneliness leads a person to party and all those partying is just only a bunch of lonely people. This led me to think are we partying just because we are a bunch of lonely freaks?
If yes then why are we lonely? why do we need to constantly do some daring stunt just to feel the adrenalin rush? what about just peacefully happy?

I guess this is why they say life is a journey where you experience and explore. Maybe it's time for me to explore the depths of this. Hopefully I'll be able to find what I'm looking for.

A teaser for a friend!

沒那麼簡單 by 黃小琥

沒那麼簡單 就能找到 聊得來的伴
尤其是在 看過了那麼多的背叛
總是不安 只好強悍
誰謀殺了我的浪漫

*沒那麼簡單 就能去愛 別的全不看
變得實際 也許好也許壞各一半
不愛孤單 一久也習慣
不用擔心誰 也不用被誰管

感覺快樂就忙東忙西
感覺累了就放空自己
別人說的話 隨便聽一聽 自己作決定
不想擁有太多情緒
一杯紅酒配電影
在周末晚上 關上了手機 舒服窩在沙發裡*

chorus:
**相愛沒有那麼容易 每個人有他的脾氣
過了愛作夢的年紀 轟轟烈烈不如平靜
幸福沒有那麼容易 才會特別讓人著迷
什麼都不懂的年紀
曾經最掏心 所以最開心 曾經**

Repeat *

Repeat ** (2x)

想念最傷心 但卻最動心 的記憶

刺猬 by 温岚

最后一抹的微笑
在转身之后
我闭上眼哭了
仅存的一点点骄傲
华丽的外表终于丢掉
很彷徨很孤单
是寂寞或悲惨
一个人该怎么办

像是刺猬般防范
伪装的勇敢
不轻易让你看穿
我以为可以很坦然
面对分开时不觉得伤感
然而将灯关上一片无声黑暗
心痛的大声呼喊

Chorus:
*我想我没那么坚强
每个女孩其实一样
渴望着爱情的好 渴望被拥抱
却都害怕爱让人受伤

承认我没那么坚强
不过是一而再的逞强
小心将情绪收藏比傻瓜还傻
刺猬的坚强全都是假象
哭吧*

像是刺猬般防范
伪装的勇敢
不轻易让你看穿
我以为可以很坦然
面对分开时不觉得伤感
然而将灯关上一片无声黑暗
心痛的大声呼喊

Repeat Chorus (2x)

Crossroads

They say by the time you're in your 30s, you should have acheived something in your life. Or the least is to get married and settle down for a family life. No more of those wild days in which you hop on a stranger's Harley and go for a ride. Every move that you take at this stage is of cautious and rational decision making. But what if you're still at a crossroad at the age of 30? Not knowing which way to go, no acheivements in your life (.....yet.....hopefully.......one day.......you will have........ ) Then i welcome you into 30s Mid Life Crisis.

As you age, some things tend to dawn on to you that you're not ready to accept. For instances, when you're being reffered to as an aunty rather than miss; your friends are all settling down and starting a family while you still roam the earth on your own carefreely when you know you should be settling down otherwise you'll be categorised in the high risk pregnancy group or even worse.... being labelled as old maid; supposedly has owned at least a car and a house but having none of those and am still trying to clear off your accumulated credit card bills. Haiz........ What a crisis.......

Then you will start to question yourself, doubt yourself, and eventually fear sets in. You try to keep your age a secret, ban any events or occasion that has any slightest implication of your age, apply layers and layers of moisturiser just to keep youself looking youthful. You won't even dare to think about life after 30 as you already can hardly cope with going 30.

Well you might think: single life is better as there are no commitments (lies), you have no achivements in life cause you took a longer path in which you ended up working only at the age of 24 (excuse), you can't afford a house because housing prices nowadays are insane (true..... but still an excuse) and you end up with nothing. nothing. a big No-thing.

If this is the scenario you're in then maybe you should sit down, take out a piece of paper and a pen, start jotting down plans for your future. Start with simpler goals that are able to be achieved within a short period of time and by acheiving them it leads you to acheive other bigger goals.

All being said, it's normal to have a mid life crisis. but the important things is how you get over it.

It's been a busy year end. Lots to do. Actually i think my resolution made in the previous blog worked out. Now i don't really spend that much time at my desk unless there are things to be done. Going out of the office now enables to let me at least have some fresh air. (Not that the air outside is that clean, but you know the expression!)

Well.... I've been searching for some activities to do in order to fill up my free time. Thought of taking up latin dance as there are a few benefits i can think of:
1) Keeping fit and healthy (focus more on the tummy!!!)
2) Acquire some dancing skills
3) Socialize and meet new people
4) Correct my hunching posture
Unfortunately the place that i am currently working at does not have such dance school. How come? How come? Tsk.....Tsk...... guess i'll need to put this plan on hold.

Bunch of Donkeys!@!!!

I have deserted my blog for some time due to the busy schedule at work. Work!!!!!!! A very dreaded word for me. Well, i know everyone at some point in life hates their work. Bit i can assure you none is like mine. To start it off i work for a bunch of donkeys. They are bloody slow in doing things not to mention that their heart is not at work. There is no fairness in the system and you are just taken for granted of things that at first are not suppose to be under you at the first place. You try to help out in the beginning but at the end you are the one doing all the things. Even the head of the committee doesn't even care on the progress of things just an occasional enquiry of everything ok? i leave it to you?

Here I am adding another resolution to my this year's list and that would be: ignore all the donkeys and other irrelevant task. I will just focus on my students. I will say 'No' to everything and just ignore them. To **** with them. They can just go rot in ****.