It's been a busy year end. Lots to do. Actually i think my resolution made in the previous blog worked out. Now i don't really spend that much time at my desk unless there are things to be done. Going out of the office now enables to let me at least have some fresh air. (Not that the air outside is that clean, but you know the expression!)

Well.... I've been searching for some activities to do in order to fill up my free time. Thought of taking up latin dance as there are a few benefits i can think of:
1) Keeping fit and healthy (focus more on the tummy!!!)
2) Acquire some dancing skills
3) Socialize and meet new people
4) Correct my hunching posture
Unfortunately the place that i am currently working at does not have such dance school. How come? How come? Tsk.....Tsk...... guess i'll need to put this plan on hold.

Bunch of Donkeys!@!!!

I have deserted my blog for some time due to the busy schedule at work. Work!!!!!!! A very dreaded word for me. Well, i know everyone at some point in life hates their work. Bit i can assure you none is like mine. To start it off i work for a bunch of donkeys. They are bloody slow in doing things not to mention that their heart is not at work. There is no fairness in the system and you are just taken for granted of things that at first are not suppose to be under you at the first place. You try to help out in the beginning but at the end you are the one doing all the things. Even the head of the committee doesn't even care on the progress of things just an occasional enquiry of everything ok? i leave it to you?

Here I am adding another resolution to my this year's list and that would be: ignore all the donkeys and other irrelevant task. I will just focus on my students. I will say 'No' to everything and just ignore them. To **** with them. They can just go rot in ****.

Rest in Peace, V3!

I have known V3 for some time, she was introduced to me by my sister. During our first meeting, she was dressed in pink robe, slim and elegant. I was awed by her. Had she known that she would have to serve a careless and absent minded owner I guess she would have refused from the start. However, since she was assigned to me, she carried out her task with dedication and of full compliance, that is, until the unfortunate event on 26th March.

It was just like any other normal day for V3 and me, attending classes together, having her to convey my messages to the students and etc. I still remember it was after lunch and since I was in a hurry, V3 took a ride as usual in my bag with all the others plus an additional passenger, the plastic mineral water bottle. Had I known that he was a murderer I would not have let him got in my bag. Slowly and quietly he drowned all the passengers on board. They were all crying out for help but the owner, me, was too preoccupied with the students to even notice the calls of distress. I only found out about it an hour later but they were all soak and drenched and only half alive.

I manage to revive all of the passengers including V3, however after the incident V3 was not her usual self. She exhausts very quickly and needs to be recharged almost every single day. I knew it must be the damage cause by the drowning incident. This situation carried on for about 2½ weeks and on the morning of 10th Apr, she was admitted into the 'hospital'. Almost a week later, the 'doctor' called to inform that he had done his best. Her time of death was at 11.20am, 16th Apr.

It was an honour to have v3 serve me. may you rest in peace!

OnLy HuMan -K

OnLy HuMan -K
(ost- 1 Litre Tears)

Kanashimi no mukou kishi ni
Hohoemi ga aru to yu yo

Kanashimi no mukou kishi ni
Hohoemi ga aru to yu yo
Tadori tsuku sono saki ni wa
Nani ga bokura wo matteru?

Nigeru tame ja naku yume ou tame ni
Tabi ni deta hazusa tooi natsu no ano hi
Ashita sae mieta nara tame iki mo nai kedo
Nagare ni sakarau fune no you ni
Ima wa mae he susume

Kurushimi no tsukita basho ni
Shiawase ga matsu to yu yo
Boku wa mada sagashite iru
Kisetsu hazure no himawari
Kobushi nigirishime asahi wo mateba
Akai tsume ato ni namida kirari ochiru
Kodoku ni mo nareta nara
Tsuki akari tayori ni
Hane naki tsubasa de tobi tatou
Motto mae he susume

Amagumo ga kireta nara
Nureta michi kagayaku
Yami dake ga oshiete kureru
Tsuyoi tsuyoi hikari
Tsuyoku mae he susume


[English transalation] very motivating!
On the opposite coast of sadness
Is something called a smile

On the opposite coast of sadness
Is something called a smile
But before we can go there,
is there something we’re waiting for?

In order to chase our dreams,
we can’t have a reason to run away
We’ve got to go, to that far away summer’s day

If we find it tomorrow, we can’t sigh
Because like a boat that opposes the stream
we have to walk straight on

In a place worn down by sadness
something called a miracle, is waiting
Yet we are still searching for
the sunflower that grows at the end of spring
The warrior who awaits the morning light
before he can clasp it with red nails,
his tears glitter and fall

Even if we’ve grown used to loneliness
only relying on the light of the moon
We have to fly away with featherless wing
just go foward, just a little further

As the rainclouds break
the wet streets sparkles
Although it brings only darkness
A powerful, powerful light helps push us to walk on

I have known V3 for some time, she was introduced to me by my sister. During our first meeting, she was dressed in pink robe, slim and elegant. I was awed by her. Had she known that she would have to serve a careless and absent minded owner I guess she would have refused from the start. However, since she was assigned to me, she carried out her task with dedication and of full compliance, that is, until the unfortunate event on 26th March.

It was just like any other normal day for V3 and me, attending classes together, having her to convey my messages to the students and etc. I still remember it was after lunch and since I was in a hurry, V3 took a ride as usual in my bag with all the others plus an additional passenger, the plastic mineral water bottle. Had I known that he was a murderer I would not have let him got in my bag. Slowly and quietly he drowned all the passengers on board. They were all crying out for help but the owner, me, was too preoccupied with the students to even notice the calls of distress. I only found out about it an hour later but they were all soak and drenched and only half alive.


I manage to revive all of the passengers including V3, however after the incident V3 was not her usual self. She exhausts very quickly and needs to be recharged almost every single day. I knew it must be the damage cause by the drowning incident. This situation carried on for about 2½ weeks and on this morning she huff her last breath. She is being sent to a repair shop for a diagnosis to see if there are any chances of resuscitating her. Don't give up V3!!

Don't give up V3!

V3 was admitted to the hospital due to some complications, hope the doctor is able to diagnose what is wrong with her and help get get back on her feet. Don't give up V3!!!!!

An ethereal holiday!

Today during meeting, the higher authorities had dumped a good news and a bad one onto us. During the whole academic year, there is an additional 2 weeks of holiday allocated. The bad news is, the holidays are only catered for the students, not the teachers. Teacher wil have to report to work for a week when they are no students in the campus. What irony!!!!!!!!!

你不是真正的快乐 - 五月天(Mayday)

A very touching song.
I guess most of us at certain times have to be fake in order to conceal our emotions from others. Occasionally eventhough we are sad, we still put a smile on our face just to entertain the people surrounding us to avoid questions that we are reluctant to answer. At other times we just hope we can dissapear from this world........ even just for a while. And when all hopes is lost......... nothing will really matter anymore...........

你不是真正的快乐 - 五月天
词曲：阿信 编曲：五月天

人群中哭着 你只想变成透明的颜色
你再也不会梦或痛或心动了
你已经决定了 你已经决定了
你静静忍着 紧紧把昨天在拳心握着
而回忆越是甜就是越伤人
越是在手心留下密密麻麻深深浅浅的刀割

*你不是真正的快乐
你的笑只是你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了 也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂关在永远锁上的躯壳

这世界笑了 于是你合群的一起笑了
当生存是规则 不是你的选择
于是你含着眼泪飘飘荡荡跌跌撞撞地走着

*

你不是真正的快乐 你的伤从不肯完全的愈合
我站在你左侧 却像隔着银河
难道就真的抱着遗憾一直到老了 然后才后悔着

*

你不是真正的快乐
你的伤从不肯完全的愈合 我站在你左侧 却像隔着银河
难道就真的抱着遗憾一直到老了

你值得真正的快乐
你应该脱下你穿的保护色
为什么失去了 还要被惩罚呢
能不能就让悲伤全部结束在此刻
重新开始活着

对的人- 戴爱玲

I guess this song does really gives us the message not to rush into love. I love the lyrics the first time i listen to this song. The things mentioned in it are so true and you can easily relate to it.

对的人- 戴爱玲
作词:姚谦 作曲编曲:Keith Stuart

你问在我心中 是否还苦恼
那次受伤 否决了爱的好
谢谢你的关照 我一切都好
一个人 不算困扰

爱虽然 很美妙
却不能为了寂寞 又陷了泥沼
爱要耐心等待 仔细寻找 感觉很重要
宁可空白了手 等候一次 真心的拥抱
我相信在这个世界上 一定会遇到
对的人出现 在眼角

那次流过的泪 让我学习到
如何祝福 如何转身不要
在眼泪体会到 与自己拥抱
爱不是一种需要 是一种对照

爱虽然很美妙
却不能为了寂寞 又陷了泥沼
爱要耐心等待 仔细寻找 感觉很重要
宁可空白了手 等候一次 真心的拥抱
我相信在这个世界上 一定会遇到
对的人出现

能愿意为了一份爱
付出去多少
然后得到多少 并不计较
当我想清楚的时候
我就算已经准备好
放手去爱 海阔天高
woh~~ya~~

爱要耐心等待 仔细寻找 感觉很重要
宁可空白了手 等候一次 真心的拥抱
我相信这世界上 一定会遇到
对的人出现

爱要耐心等待 仔细寻找 感觉很重要
宁可空白了手 等候一次 真心的拥抱
我相信在这个世界上 一定会遇到
对的人出现

Let 'HIM' be the judge

Double depressed. In my heart there are a lot of things that i wanted to say and clarify but am unable to........ cause i know it is useless as i have no proof. What's the point......... even if you say it out they'll just think that you are defending for your own actions. I just have to swallow the accusation and bring it to my grave. God is watching and he'll know, i leave it to him when my judgement day comes. But now the feeling really sucks, BIG TIME!

Framed!!!!!!

I was kinda depress today...... i can't really talk about it directly but i can describe a similiar situation. Well it's something that you are very sure you have not committed but all evidence sorts of points to you and you are unable to prove your innocence. The worst part is even I myself feels the evidence is infalliable, but, i know the real truth isn't like that.

Some things occasionally are no use explaining but just to take a better precaution to avoid the same things happening again.

Busy Busy Busy

What a busy period. I am drowning with work, don't even have the luxury to blog. Well there is nothing much to tell and nothing interesting, but my life is fully packed with schedules. hm..... let's see..... Last week i headed down to matta fair 2009. This week i have to attend a collegue's wedding in putrajaya, next week i have a course coming.

Well it's busy, busy and busy for me.

Ciao.

A tribute to my handbag, purse and mobile phone.

Dear handbag, purse & mobile phone,
I would like to thank all of you for the years of services that you've provided me.

Handbag:
small and petite, rugged and chic.

can go with any style i wish,

everywhere I go she goes too,

and takes whatever junk I dumped in.

Purse:
colourful, cheerful and an organizer freak,

keeps my cards in its respectful slits,

without having me to go through the cards,

to find the one that i really need,

now with you aren't my life a bliss.

Mobile phone:
Stylish and elegant, proud to bring you anywhere.

Entertains my boredoom with songs and games,

my life was never dull again.

Although our time together was brief,

only just for the mere 2 weeks,

in my heart you'll always stay.


They ended their service on 22 February 2009.
P.S. my handbag was snatched by snatch theif.

Life is like dark chocolates.

While doing my work, i suddenly remebered that i still had some dark chocolates stored away in my food supply drawer. Talking about dark chocolates, i don't have a real dislike or liking towards it cause it bitter and a bit bland. But just now as i broke of a little square piece of that large bar and put it in my mouth, I try to savour every little taste of it. Maybe due to the emotions that i have gone through yesterday night, i had a whole new experience of tasting dark chocolate.

I rest my head against the chairback, close my eyes, and slowly suckled at the chocolate. It tasted bitter as usual but as it starts to melt in my mouth there was a very mild sweetness which sorts of blends into that bitterness. What more of an appropriate word than 'bittersweet' to describe the whole tasting experience. The taste still lingers around my mouth and in my mind. I would say from that experience onwards i am deeply in love with dark chocolate.

I guess the reason why people love dark chocolate is because they can relate the taste closely with life. It is a very bitter life out there now with the economic's recession and other unhappy things that occur along the way but try to slow down and appreciate all the goods things that had happen and you will find the little sweetness in your life. It is those little sweetness that makes the bitter bearable and with this you will go far.

On this this hot and humid night, i wasn't able to drift off to dreamland as usual. Something kept bugging me at the back of my mind. As i toss and turn on my bed, I asked myself what have i acheived. 'NOTHING' comes to mind. Nothing......... my mind was blank.

I once had a dream, and to tell you the truth i was better off than all of my friends during my schooling days. Well not filthy rich but above average. However, up till this point of my life i'm staying where i am, not going anywhere, while all my other friends have pursue far ahead of me! I feel like i'm neither here nor there. I couldn't pursue my dreams, i've been burden by responsibilities that i've never thought off....etc. (a lot more that i can't really take it off my chest) The more i'm updated with what's happening around me the more i feel insignificant, a very tiny insignificant fool. i can picture myself sitting in front of a window watching as the days past by...... from dawn till dusk......then from dusk back to dawn.............days, weeks, months, years and decades past by........... what will become of me?

Steamed Caramel Cakes

Ingredients A:
1 beaten egg
100ml hot water
100ml evaporated milk
200g fine granulated sugar @ gula melaka
100gm butter (melted)

Ingredients B:
(sifted)
200gm plain flour
+ 1 tsp bicarbonate soda
+ a pinch of salt

Method
1. Caramelise sugar in saucepan over low heat until golden brown.
2. Remove from heat and add in hot water
3. Boil again mixture until caramel dissolves.
4. Reserve 150ml of this syrup and wait for it to cool.
5. Mix together syrup and rest of the remaining ingredients in A in a big mixing bowl.
6. Slowly fold in ingredient B. (use a beater and beat it very slowly to avoid lumps)
7. Pour into greased moulds or paper cups Then steam for about 30 min.

Are We Old Yet???
(If this happens to you then you know you're already there.)

Garage Door

The boss walked into the office one morning not knowing his zipper was down and his fly area wide open.

His assistant walked up to him and said,
'This morning when you left your house, did you close your garage door?'

The boss told her he knew he'd closed the garage door, and walked into his office puzzled by the question.As he finished his paperwork, he suddenly noticed his fly was open, and zipped it up. He then understood his assistant's question about his 'garage door.'

He headed out for a cup of coffee and paused by her desk to ask,
'When my garage door was open, did you see my Hummer parked in there?'

She smiled and said,
'No, I didn't. All I saw was an old mini van with two flat tires.'


Miscommunication

Three old guys are out walking.
First one says, 'Windy, isn't it?'
Second one says, 'No, it's Thursday!'
Third one says, 'So am I. Let's go get a beer.'

Happy Chinese New Year!

Chinese new year is here, i have a week off before the week of cny and gets to go off until the third day of CNY. Some of you might say it's a long holiday but not really as we have to mark the mid semester papers of the students. That..... has already taken up my whole week before the CNY, therefore all the shoppings were done last minute. Nevertheless, I had a fun and CNY by utilizing every second of it till the fullest.

The most impressive of them all was the night before the eve of cny, me and some friends gather for a drink and we then head straight on to sing Karaoke until 5 in the morning. ^-^ Those memories will definitely last me a lifetime!

Hope it's not too late to wish everyone "GONG XI FA CAI" !!!!!!!!!

Partying to 2009

Went partying with my sis and her friends to count down to 2009. Had a hell lot of fun. We dance till the wee hours of the morning to the tune of Mambo Jumbo in Velvet which was fantastic and even sung our throat out to all of the familiar tunes.

Had a hangover the next day but still need to keep going as it was my grandma's birthday party and i wouldn't miss it for the world!